why do I feel like this?

I already have someone in my life to love
but why i feel like my heart is not belong to him
the world of reality is that he got me..
but in reality life ,my heart is not for him..

to : Mr.Commander

me is belong to someone 

every time I face to face wit u.. 

I cannot say anything .. 

I just silent and staring into ur eyes

I know my feelings for u have clearly betrayed my love wit him
but what can I do ?
I'd sooner love with u before he came in my life

I think I can forget my feelings for u after he enter in my life

apparently not at all,,

I do not know if u knows what I feel all this to u ..

I'm just a girl that one hand clapping..

one day if you give me a chance ..

 I wish i can get a big hug from you.

.I wanted to cry on your shoulder and express all that I feel